It's 2018, and there's a lot of shit on the internet.
Sometimes I stop and ask myself if I really want to contribute to such a noisy environment, or should I opt out and chart my progress in my journal, and share insights in face to face convos with my tribe. I'm not unique in these sentiments - they seem to be spreading across the web, and I think it has something to do with the fact that there's just SO MUCH information out there, and scrolling on feeds for hours does not pay the bills, or lead to higher rates of well-being (I'll take a guess and say they're inversely related).
This week, I got the chance to visit Rochester on a work-related trip. By Friday I was completely drained. What's strange is the entire time I was there I couldn't put my finger on what was wrong. But on my way back to Jacksonville, I realized I hadn't done anything creative or valuable to me... and worse; I hadn't even noticed.
I think it comes down to an issue of autonomy. I wasn't participating in activities that I wanted to. Even in my day to day life at home, I recognize that 80% of my time has begun to feel non-volitional... Whether that's going someplace because I feel socially obligated, or picking up my phone to read the latest iMessage notification. Sometimes I feel as if I'm at everyone's beck and call - except my own.
I recently read this article about using the internet and Social Media deliberately. It was an excellent read that I highly recommend if you have the time. But what I realized was that I'd like to be a bit more deliberate in how I'm spending my time IN GENERAL, not just digitally. This is emerging as a recurring theme lately. Perhaps it's something I need to explore through a creative lens this week...?
Anyhow... I want to start by incorporating a practice that I used all the time in college: Intentional list making. Every morning, I sit down and write a list titled something like "Things I need to do today so I can wake up tomorrow and feel good" or "Things to do today to fall asleep happy". It isn't revolutionary, or crazy - just pen and paper. The hard part is incorporating it into a daily routine and following through.
You can do whatever you want...
As long as you know what you want to do.
Nothing compares to crossing items off that list and falling asleep feeling like you used the day to your full advantage, and no details have slipped through your fingers. I need to get back to intentional organization, because lord knows this low energy version of myself is NOT cute.
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