This past week was a mishmash of creative activity. I figured out a new creative direction (which is a huge weight off my shoulders), worked on my journal, brainstormed a few concepts, and started working on the next podcast The biggest take-away was that every week won't be a cohesive project. All that counts is that I'm working on something and making progress.
I can't lie, most of my creative energy was spent on work projects, so by the time 5PM rolled around everyday the last thing I wanted to do was anything computer related, or anything at home for that matter. Working remotely can be tough because unlike a freelance job where you can work anywhere and create your own schedule, somedays I feel stuck at home due to scattered 30 min meetings throughout the day. There's usually a looming feeling of being "on-call" and It can start to feel like my home is a prison. Needless to say, whenever I have a free afternoon I take my work to Starbucks, the nearby university, or the library for a change of scenery. It's funny because I work better in these locations anyway, and always have. But all of this has made the concept of autonomy a prominent theme on my mind.
There are so many things on my to do list, all within reach if I'm disciplined enough to work on them and strategic enough to know HOW I work.
The emphasis is on "how I work", not how someone else says I should. It requires self knowledge, and honesty.
When I was younger, I would get so upset when my sister would do something I got in trouble for, and not be reprimanded. My mom used to respond simply, "Worry about yourself" and it would make my blood boil because I felt like my sister was getting away with murder. I'm starting to see the value in those words now.
Our goals, timeline, and path are all unique. There will always be someone out there doing more, doing something different, ripping off ideas, jumping on a new bandwagon because it looks cool, or they've been told they should. Does that mean you have to? Absolutely not.
Sometimes the best thing to do to find your inner compass is to stop looking outside. To write, cook, draw, and paint whatever the fuck you want and keep making until an answer is revealed to you. Not for the sake of anyone else, and not for quantitative collateral - be it money, followers, or likes.
Stay in motion because you want to, because something calls you to be. In productivity, you learn how you work, and what you like and dislike. Motion is how you conjure up change, and define and manifest the unique vision you have for your life.